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Inspire Me or Maybe Post Me

19 Jul

So has anyone ever tried the ‘inspire me’ link? I just did about 5 seconds ago. And then I wondered if the inspiration changes so I clicked it again. I didn’t try the link ‘cos I was uninspired I was just curious. It seems like I was just too curious today because I stumbled on Heed not Steve’s “Do not read” post, I know I should reblog it but I actually don’t know how so sorry. Any way as I was saying, I was feeling curious about the Inspire Me thing because today was the first time I saw it.

I actually intended to post some of my older work, but I didn’t feel like the uncreative empty work of just blindly retyping things I’ve already worked on (just remembered copy paste – AAARRGH! CAL, YOU IDIOT! anyways…) What do you think about the things shown in the inspire me deal? Have you ever, will you ever use them? I’m not sure if I ever will, maybe one day if I’m really bored and have a serious case of writer’s block but then again I always find something to write about as soon as I turn on my computer. Even though half of what I write is total bull shit I still have something to write about, I guess maybe I’m just inspired. No need for you ‘Inspire Me’. I have years and years of insecurities of sadness and anger to write about. I have thousands of things I can write, but then comes the obvious question why don’t I post it?

Hmmm, I guess I need something else, not an inspire me but maybe a thing like that says is this really worth posting. A should I or shouldn’t I. Or maybe something that says post me, publish this. Something that says the effort of sitting on your ass watching your fingers hopping from one letter to the next was worth it. Maybe the word is inspire as in inspire me to actually publish. You know it’s all good that I feel inspired and that I actually have stuff to say but I want something that will tell me post you stupid –¬†son of a bitch (sorry mom)¬†forget I wrote that, how about mother fucker (sorry mom again) didn’t say that either – fool -yes that’s better. There should be some tag under everything you write that says: ‘this should be posted you stupid fool’. But then comes my other problem I like using a pen (that way I can say I actually write), and when you write with pen and paper there is nothing that could say publish me (maybe I should get one of those pad thingies that type out handwritten work). I guess I just have a problem with no solution.

Urgh! WordPress help me, don’t help me feel inspired help me post, please.

AnotherWannabe inspired but not going anywhere.

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Demystification

12 Jul

Today was the first time I told someone about my blog. Sure plenty of people know I blog but I never told them my address or what my blog is about. Today was the first time that someone who isn’t a stranger read what I had to say. After I told my friend about my account he immediately jumped at the opportunity to read my page. He says he liked it and all (you know the usual stuff), but that isn’t why I’m writing. I guess I’m writing this because I wanted to talk about secrets. Things that we keep hidden, things that other people don’t know or shouldn’t know about you.

The one thing I want people to feel when they read my blog is demystified. In real life I spend so much time hiding things about myself to the world. In the real world I spend so much time pretending that I am something else, that I am happy,strong, confident, well-put-together, the list goes on and on, when really on the inside I am scared, angry, confused, self-deprecating, this list goes on and on too. I’m glad to have my blog, I’m glad I have a space to discuss my insecurities. I am glad that there is one space in my life where I am free to display a secret me.

So when people read my blog, I want them to experience a secret. I want them to see a life that can’t be and isn’t displayed out there in the real world. I hope that through reading it people will realise that there is more to people then what they display on the outside. I want to demystify myself using this space. I guess there is a lot more I could say, but I’m just thinking back on a post I made yesterday. I suppose it is a good thing to write about yourself, at times, especially when our world is so full of secrets, writing about yourself opens doors and welcomes people into the last sacred space in the world (our minds). My blog is my space to show what my life is without all the smoke and mirrors, and I hope that that is what people get out of it.

(Okay I think I’m comfortable enough to show some of my work on here now)

So I guess now everyone knows why I’m so uncomfortable telling people I know about my blog right? Anyways my parents will only read this in 30 years or so (if ever).